Today was like every other,
work started and I got bits done.
There were some problems, prangs and particular,
pointed people,
that got into my head,
but I think I’ve done better today.
I made sure to eat properly,
spend time working and away from my desk,
I’m starting to realise how crucial,
rewarding and active breaks can be.
Just standing up,
running down stairs,
stretching all my limbs,
and making a cup of tea,
simple,
yet excessively effective.
I did the usual chores,
washing pots, cleaning up,
taking out the recycling and rubbish.
The issue is I usually frame these,
as tasks that need doing,
unfortunately that just adds,
to the mounting monument of a list in my mind.
This time I asked myself, why?
The why of why I’m wandering around,
working on household bits.
It’s not to get them done,
because they need to be done,
my mum planted this idea early,
that all this must be finished,
now, today, rapidly, without compromise,
no spots missed, nothing out of place.
That’s wrong,
but acting it all out,
for the better part of 2 decades,
really sinks in.
Today I told myself that isn’t the why,
I do these for my own appreciation,
for the people I live with,
and even more so I realise,
for the cognitive break.
I used to have that thought as well,
twisted though,
using the mundane to solve problems,
that in itself is one.
It works, don’t get me wrong,
but it is a toxic byproduct,
a trap I set myself,
working while taking a break…
On this day, I convinced myself,
that this why is not a part of my work,
it’s who I want to show myself as,
especially in the mundane.
I know I’m capable, calm and full of will,
so why let work, worries or issues,
take my time away from me?