It got harder today,
more difficult I’d say,
some of the panicky,
twisty feelings are trying.
They’re trying to surface,
I still hear them,
heard them,
this time I heard them.
I knew what they were,
simple attempts to fall,
free fall back into old habits,
my mind chained to a crawl.
I used to break my peace,
let these things in,
this time I caught it,
that’s a new feeling, a fresh step.
It’s come back again,
just a bit while I’m writing this,
that’s good though,
it should be able to come in.
I can let it go by,
I don’t have to listen,
even if it comes from me,
for me to be better,
more self aware,
I’ve got to listen to the right things,
bits I want and respect,
for me, about me.
Breathe right,
do the 5 4 3 2 1,
we’ve got this.